Fantasy Worlds, Chaotic Eloquence, and Banned Books.

When I was younger, I use to write fantasy stories and beautiful poems. Not just the "Oh, woe is me, I'm so sad" type of poetry, but real poetry. The kind that someone who has been writing for their whole life would write. They were my own masterpieces. I hit a point in my life where I stopped living in my poems and the fantasy world I visit only every once in a while; now I have difficulty penning a single poem, and when I do, it's not as good as they use to be. I've lost my eye for rhyme, rhythm, and meter. The three most important parts of writing a poem. I've lost some of my writing style too, it's changed and evolved as I've grown.

The last time I actually "wrote" poetry was my sophomore year when I had Mrs. Dasser*. She set a writing assignment that was to be our final, we had to write a poetry book with fifteen poems and the book would be worth 350 points. So, I dug and found my old journals with my seventh and eight grade poetry in it and I typed them up, added artwork to the pages and stuck it in the sleeve. I did this with about ten of my poems. So, you know me, the overachiever, I decided to sit down and write the other five from scratch. But five turned into ten and then I the before I turned in my book (which I titled Chaotic Eloquence) I wrote another poem, so I stuffed it in the last page that she said to put in there for the grading paper. (Lucky for me, I had an extra sleeve in my bag.)

I laugh looking back on it now, 'cause after she handed our books back to us after they'd been graded, she said this in the most serious of tones and had the most solemn facial expression, "Guys, I've never wanted to kill myself until I read all your poems. It's not that they were bad, no, they were well written, even a some of you have genius writing skills with poetry, it's just your class and every other class with the graduation year 2007 I have is probably the most depressed, suicidal, heartbroken, neglected, and messed up kids I have ever had to read about." I felt bad for her, I'm sure she went on anti-depressants after reading our poems. She refused to do the final as a poetry book the year after us. (Yes, Mamacita, I got a 450/350.) So, needless to say, I passed her final with an A+ and the highest final score from the 10th grade. Her comment on my paper, "You'll be famous". Tell me something someone else hasn't, please.

My literary hang-ups are:
1. I'm either too descriptive or too vague, never am I "Just right".
2. I have either all conversation or none at all. I can't find my happy medium.
3. I tend to bounce from first person to third omnipresent.
4. I over-analyze my own writing.

I digress.

I talk a lot to people when I finally get the chance to talk. And most of the time, the person probably gets tired of hearing me talk, but I just can't help it. Ya know?! I'm just a boring housewife and mother who is living in her "glory days" to stay sane. I love Ami, don't get me wrong, but I get tired of being a mom sometimes, and I just want to throw everything down (Not my son, I'd place him in his walker) and run off and be a kid. Because in essence, I'm still a kid. As a quote I read somewhere once said, "It's never to late to have a happy childhood" maybe I'll get mine some day.

Changing topics.

I was reading an article in the paper about "Early Literacy Programs" and here's my take on that. I laughed. Ha, I was read to as a child (yes, they did read to me, believe it or not) and learned how to read because of that. I owned over 300 Golden Books, all of which I donated to a Kindergarten Teacher when I moved and had no place for them in a trailer as compared to the five bedroom house I lived in for nine years. (Three years in a trailer before that). So, here's my opinion, if parent's would get off their asses high horse and read to their children and help them learn to read at a young age, then there would be no need for an "Early Literacy Program". Take Ami, my son, for example. Already, he's only 6 mos old, and I am reading to him from "Chronicals of Narnia" . I am saving Harry Potter until he can understand them, but I can't wait to read that series to him.



Harry potter is an excellent series. I don't care what these close-minded enthusiasts say about it being 'evil', 'wicked', 'witchcraft' it's not. You're stupid, go jump off a bridge.

Long live the banned books list. I'd be GLAD to be on that list. 'Cause it would mean I was among the greatest writers to have ever lived. A master of my craft, if you must. Like Stephen King, Maya Angelou, Steinback. That's my goal in life, to be on the Banned Books list with the greatest authors that have ever lived. Long live the greats.

I'm done.