Her last breath was spent with a small laugh, she had succeeded.

The novel I am writing includes suicide. I'm going to say that to begin with. It contains things that might just get me put on the list of banned books. I only hope my grammar and the plot are decent enough to live up to that list of wonderful authors when I get slapped there. That is, if anyone remotely reads the novel which will probably take me years to write.

But in writing a novel, fiction or nonfiction, there's always a bit of research involved. My character, the one the story is about, commits suicide and it's her friend telling her story to you, the readers. She's telling me the story as I write it. Yet, there's a note that she leaves behind. That's where my research is coming in at. I am researching suicide notes and what kind of people write them (surprisingly only 10%-25% of suicides write notes, which is less than I originally thought) what those individuals usually say, and how they finish the letter.

But there's something about my character, though that I want to make the note beautiful. I wish for it to be her beautiful goodbye her love note to the world. She's a complex character. With a troubled past and a mask that she hides behind for everyone but her best friend, the narrator of the story. I want the note to be something so eloquent and so amazingly perfect that it even moves me to tears.

I'm a twisted author, you need not tell me. I already know.

I don't think there have been any beautiful suicide notes ever written in all my research. So, I've made it my duty to write the most beautiful sucide note anyone has ever read. Even if it does belong to a fictional character.

I think I'll just go about writing the story and then come back and finish her note last-even though it will be among one of the first things people will read in the book.